Honestly, I'm not sure ifmoving to this city was the best choice. I absolutelylove living withym sister, but shes barely home. She leaves for workaround 7 am and gets back around 6. I only know one other person here but he is living with his girlfriend so I feel weird hanging out with them. Its weird not being able to just go out into the woods on nice days, and I feel really detached from nautre. I can barely afford transportation here by bus- 2.25 a ride. Everything is so damn far away, even if I do find something to do. Nothing is free, I mean yes there are free events but the whole trasportation thing sucks. I could be bumming around Maine and it would honestly cost a lot less- borrowing my moms car, bumming rides off of my friends.
I mean its only been a week here but I told my dad if I don't have a job by July, I would come home (after Pitchfork festival). Because living here, I'm just losing money instead of staying at a stale poor. Summer has always been my favorite season, and I don't want this city to ruin it. I think I'm also in a bad mood because Keith left for camp today and doesn't really get service so now I only get to talk to him like 2-3 times a week, if that.
I feel bad though because I know Grace wants me to stay here as long as I can because shes lonely lliving here, so I can't really leave, even if I am counting down the days.
I just don't fit in, I want to be on the farm growing food, not fucking working retail for corporate America.